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Monday, February 11, 2013

Corban's Birth Story


Corban Dean Moore
January 29, 2013
9lb 7oz, 19.75in

I am so grateful God has blessed me with the opportunity to mother three boys. From conception I have known this birth would be different. After having planned 2 births that went awry and then a miscarriage I decided it must be God’s plan for my babies to be born in hospitals. For this reason, for the first time, I sought out a doctor instead of a midwife. When I was only about 7 weeks pregnant I began having cramps and feared losing this baby too. I had not yet found a doctor but called and made an appointment with the first doctor that could see me. I wasn’t sure that this would be my OB but I prayed that he would be compassionate toward my fears of losing another baby. God answered my prayers as only He could. Dr. Allerkamp was extremely compassionate and comforting. Within 24 hours we saw our baby and his precious beating heart on an ultrasound and were assured that Baby was developing perfectly. I was due February 5, 2013!
As the end of my pregnancy neared I began having lots of contractions. I had prayed hard that Corban would come early so that he would not get too big and scare the doctors. After my birth experience with Cameron I wanted to avoid any battles with doctors that I could. Dr. Allerkamp had thus far been open to and even encouraging of a natural birth but he was still a doctor so I was nervous. So when contractions became more regular and stronger I took notice. In the last few weeks of pregnancy, on three different occasions I timed contractions that were 5-7 minutes apart and seemingly “the real thing.” However each time they died out and the day went on. The last time that happened was Sunday afternoon on January 27. We went on to the church’s annual chili cook off where I tried to find some good spicy chili. The next morning I saw my chiropractor for my weekly visit. She did acupressure on me trying to bring the onset of labor. I went on home and went about my regular day. That night I woke up around 1:30 with contractions that felt somehow different than the other episodes. I tried sleeping but I was too excited. I woke Matt up around 2 with my tossing and turning. By 2:30 I sent my parents a text letting them know I was fairly certain this was labor. They left San Antonio by 3AM. Around 3:15 I sent Kelly Brock a text asking her to come over and stay with the boys while we went to the hospital.
Once we arrived I was put into a triage room where they checked to see my progress and our vitals. Corban and I were both doing great. Good blood pressure, good heart rate, etc. However I was only dilated to a 4. The nurse offered for me to walk the halls of the hospital to progress labor. Matt and I walked for about an hour, stopping to breathe through contractions when necessary. The discouraging part was that I was not progressing much. The need to stop and breathe through the contractions was becoming less frequent. My parents arrived from San Antonio and I began to stress about labor stopping. We went back to our triage room to be monitored again. We were still in good health but no progress had been made at all. The nurse offered that we could go home and return when things picked up but that without the use of drugs (which I did NOT want again) there was no need for me to stay in the hospital. So around 6:30 we left for home.
I was incredibly sad and anxious. I called grandparents in from San Antonio and a friend in the middle of the night. I wanted it to be for something!
Connor and Cameron had just woken up when we got home and didn't even seem to notice that we were coming home or that Kelly was there. We tried to take turns resting throughout the morning while entertaining the boys. My contractions never really stopped completely but they were 20 or even 30 minutes apart at times and not as intense as they were in the morning. I used all sorts of home remedies for getting labor going. Last of all was drinking Castor Oil. I tried it around noon I think. Around 1:30 I began having contractions again that were about 10 minutes apart. That lasted until somewhere between 3 and 4 o’clock. I wasn't completely paying attention. I was actually trying to even distract myself so that I wouldn't go crazy timing contractions. I even went to the hardware store with Matt to get some things for the bunk beds he was building. Sometime during that hour though the contractions became more intense and more like every 5 minutes. By 4:15 I was having very regular contractions that required my full focus and were 2-3 minutes apart. My mom was quite concerned that this baby would come very quickly when we decided he was ready and that we needed to be heading out the door. At 4:40 I sent a couple of texts telling people we were headed to the hospital, again. This time I was torn between these intense contractions and my fear that it would all come to a stop again.
We arrived at Metroplex Labor & Delivery again just before 5 pm  My parents took Connor & Cam to the Brock’s house and then came to be with us. This time they did not send me to triage but straight to a delivery room. I was having contractions about every 2 minutes and had to receive an IV with antibiotics to protect the baby from the slim chance he could catch the Group B Strep I was carrying. I had carefully typed up my birth plan, had Dr. Allerkamp sign off on it and put it in my file. It was fairly simple, just let me do things without intervention and as I feel led to do in the moment. An IV was not on my wish list because it limited my movement but it was necessary to protect my baby. I had taken a big stability/exercise ball with me which I thought I might sit on but instead I used it to put my arms and head on as I knelt on the bed. I was checked for progress as they monitored out vitals again. I was between a 7 and 8! I felt so much relief come over me to know that I was really going to have this baby tonight and not in another week or two. I had nurses in and out all during the time I labored asking me different questions and getting the room ready for birth. Around 6:30 the contractions were lasting at least a minute in length, some as long as 90 seconds and were very intense. The nurse called for Dr. Allerkamp who came in and checked me. I was the same, still around 8 cm  He was content to let me continue as is but I asked about breaking my water. I was hoping it would send me into the final stage and let me hold my baby. He agreed it was a good option. It took a few minutes to maneuver between contractions but around 6:40 he broke my water. I rolled back onto my hands and knees to continue laboring when out of nowhere the incredible urge to push was on me. My dad left the room, mom went to get the doctor who had just stepped out and I began to panic. I kept saying to Matt, “I can’t do this!” To which he replied, “you are doing this.” There was no going back. I pushed straight through 3 contractions and delivered Corban Dean Moore at 6:59 pm January 29. I was so panicked and exhausted and ready to be done that I pushed even when I wasn't contracting which caused some damage that I hadn't experienced before. Being on my hands and knees caused my body to use gravity and Corban came very quickly. Ten minutes from the time my water broke to the moment Dr. Allerkamp said, “Happy Birthday!” to be exact. It was the most intense 10 minutes I can remember!
 I heard a nurse say during delivery that he wasn't in the best position for birth, meaning he was slightly turned which can cause a more painful delivery. I think this is why I instinctively wanted to be on hands and knees. It was just what felt right. It allowed for the most space without my body being pressed into a bed, restricting the full space for him to deliver. I had considered lots of positions for delivery but because it all happened so fast that changing positions wasn't even an option in my mind. As a result of laboring and then delivering on my hands & knees my legs were incredibly tired and shaky over the next several hours.
My dad stood in the hall listening to the whole thing and then left shortly thereafter to go get the big brothers. Mom stayed with me and Matt in L&D while I recovered. Dad returned with the big boys and we all got to hug and hold and kiss on Corban for a while. It was so precious seeing my three boys together. Three brothers! What a treasured blessing for me and for them. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for my family.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

Thursday, June 21, 2012

bzzzz

The boys needed hair cuts and Mimi is always good about taking them. So a few weeks ago off they went to the barber. Connor's didn't really go as planned. The barber didn't cut much off the top and took too much off the sides. So when we got home Matt got out his clippers and went to work. The end result is cute but makes me sad that Connor looks so old.





Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A Club I Never Wanted to Join

Unfortunately I've had several friends over the years lose babies. I've always felt sad for them, hurt for them and wished there was something I could do to make the pain go away. But the reality is you can't fix it. I know this now from first hand experience. As much as I wanted to comfort my hurting friends, I never wanted to trade places with them. I knew that their pain and grief were real and heavy. Well, God deemed me worthy of walking the painful road of miscarriage. I am now someone who knows the pain - both physical and emotional - of losing a baby. I wanted that baby. I wanted to hold him or her. I wanted to nurse that baby. I wanted to raise that child to know and love God. But in His infinite wisdom decided that it was better for that child to be with Him. I trust that His wisdom is better, greater, deeper, bigger and so on, than mine. I do believe that this experience is for my good & His glory. I'm not sure yet what exactly that means but I trust that God's plan is being worked out. Reading His word is like a balm to my soul though. It is truth and just letting it wash over me reminds me of so much.

He is in control, I don't have to be:

Ex 33:19 The LORD replied, “For I will show mercy to anyone I choose, and I will show compassion to anyone I choose.

1 Sam 2:6-7 The LORD gives both death and life; he brings some down to the grave[a] but raises others up. The LORD makes some poor and others rich; he brings some down and lifts others up.

2 Chron. 20:6 O LORD, God of our ancestors, you alone are the God who is in heaven. You are ruler of all the kingdoms of the earth. You are powerful and mighty; no one can stand against you!

Job 42:2 I know that you can do anything, and no one can stop you.

Ps 115:3 Our God is in the heavens, and he does as he pleases.

Prov 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

Satan's lies are powerful but I can trust the Lord:

Gen 50:20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good.

He loves me and He loves this baby:

Ps 57:2 I cry out to God Most High, to God who will fulfill his purpose for me.

Ps 139:16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Ps 145:9 The LORD is good to everyone. He showers compassion on all his creation.

Phil 4:19 And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.

Isa 41:10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

Matt 11:28-30 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”


I will choose to praise Him and I will find joy even in sorrow:

Job 1:21 The LORD gave me what I had, and the LORD has taken it away. I will praise the name of the LORD!

Job 8:21 He will once again fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy.

Ps 145:21 I will praise the LORD, and may everyone on earth bless his holy name forever and ever.

I may write later about the events of the miscarriage but right now this is all my heart can handle. That is certainly one thing I am learning, grief ebbs and flows. We are not capable of processing it all at once. So one day I feel oppressed and burdened with sadness and the next I feel uplifted and at peace. Through it all, I will continue to call out to God. I will praise Him because He is worthy. He is merciful, gracious, generous, loving, and so on and on I could go. Most of all today, He is Comforter.

Friday, September 30, 2011

September in Pictures

Playing at a new park with Mimi & Papa.




Doing crafts with Mimi!

Our first carousel ride! (Same outfits about 2 weeks later.)





Captain Connor!


Evening reading with Daddy.


Sharing!

A green bath - what every boy needs!


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Swim Lesson Wrap Up

Swimming lessons ended last Thursday and we've had a very busy weekend so I am just now getting around to updating the blog. We have VBS all week this week so I know if I don't do it now it may never happen! Connor and Cameron did really well with 2 weeks of swimming. Connor did not complete all tasks necessary to move on to level 2 lessons, but he wasn't really expected to master the skills yet. He is still pretty young and quite rambunctious in the water. He learned how to kick & paddle to get from one place to another but he isn't coordinated enough to keep his head above water yet. He can blow bubbles in the water but doesn't prefer that activity. He loves to sit on the edge of the pool and kick his feet. His two favorite activities were jumping off the step and "swimming" to an adult and, of course, the water slide. He is technically too young to go on the slide but he was allowed to sit in our laps and go on it. BUT on the last 2 days the lifeguards allowed him to go alone. There is always a lifeguard at the bottom catch little kids. He did it THREE times! He loved it. He amazes me sometimes.
Cameron on the other hand could care less. He hated being cold and was always happier to be out of the water. He wasn't necessarily unhappy in the water but just squirmy and clingy. He wanted to be held very close to your body and up out of the water as much as possible. He didn't like to be pulled around by his hands or laid to float on his back. He didn't care for being dunked under water. I really hope he grows out of this distaste because I could live in the pool. I want to be in a body of water everyday! I don't even understand how someone could not enjoy it. It's a good thing he is so darn cute!

Being goofy while drying off after class Wednesday.


Getting ready for water fun!

We traded off being with each boy. Matt was just cuddling our little bug here!

Cutie crawler!

Yep, this looks about right.

This is how Cameron enjoys the water, ankle deep and very cautiously.
About to go down the slide!

Can you see that tiny boy climbing that big ladder?!

Connor shooting off the the end of the slide & the attentive lifeguard catching him.

Self portrait - can't you tell?

Father & sons!

Connor got a certificate for completing his 2 week class.

Here he is showing you his certificate.

Here are 2 videos of Connor on the slide. The sun was in my eyes and I couldn't see what exactly I was getting on video but they are super short. Just enough for evidence of his accomplishment.



Happy Father's Day!


This was, of course, filled with POP corn, POP rocks & Milk DADs plus a coupon for a movie of his choice! Happy Father's Day!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Even the Kitchen Sink

We had a leak in our kitchen faucet and we decided to replace the whole darn sink. Matt did it all himself. I am so impressed with his growing desire and ability to repair things and improve our house.

The old sink & faucet.


Going to work on the removal.


Oh what a mess!



Looking down through the counter.


The new faucet.


So it's not just Connor who likes to help!


Hi Mom!




The finished product!


So there was a major glitch in the whole thing. Connor, who loves to help with anything, was in the kitchen during all this mess. He was not responding to instruction so I was scolding him (while I was also on the phone with a friend). As he walked toward me he was looking behind him and whimpering because he was in trouble. He stepped onto the edge of the old metal sink (possibly one of the broken metal clips that hold the sink in place) and immediately turned and sliced his big toe open. I guess the cold metal startled him and as he turned the metal just opened his little toe right up. I didn't realize right away that he was hurt because he was already whining. I ended my call, got up and picked him up to take him to the other room. As I picked him up I realized that he was hurt and rushed him to the bathroom where I began rinsing his foot. There was so much blood gushing and I couldn't tell if all his toes were cut or if it was his foot. Once Matt came in with me we determined it was the big toe and that it was very deep. I wrapped his foot up in a towel and sat with him in the rocking chair. I was pretty sure we needed stitches but since Matt's mom (who is a nurse) was visiting I decided to wait until she returned from picking up dinner to check it out. I also told myself that I needed to wait to see if it would stop bleeding in a reasonable amount of time with some pressure & elevation. So we rocked. He got his pacis and we just cuddled and prayed and sang a couple of songs. Julie got back not too long after that and immediately checked out the wound. The bleeding had stopped much sooner than I expected and she was fairly confident that it couldn't be stitched due to the angle of the cut into the toe. She agreed that it was pretty deep though. We had butterfly bandages, gauze and tape on hand as well as antibiotic ointment, hydrogen peroxide and band-aids. Nurse/Grandma Julie went to work on the toe while Connor and I cuddled in his bed and read books. He amazed all of us. This boy has an incredible pain tolerance. He would occasionally fuss or flinch while she worked on him but he never cried or pitched a fit. The next morning I still had a pit in my stomach that we needed to see a doctor so I called the weekend clinic at our pedi's office and luckily she was available to see him that morning! We really love and appreciate our pediatrician and I was so grateful to get to have her look at it. She was very reassuring that stitches were likely not possible in spite of how deep the cut went. She cleaned it again and re-bandaged him. She told me to watch for signs of infection but mostly just to allow time for it to heal. We tried to carry Connor as much as possible on Saturday and when he did walk, he rolled his foot to walk on the outside of it. It kills me to see my kids in pain and there is nothing like seeing them bleed. My stomach is in knots now retelling the story. I might just go sneak into his room and give him another kiss! WARNING! Some of the following pictures might be a little graphic.

The cut wraps from between the big toe and his 2nd toe and goes at a diagonal about 3/4 of the way around.

Yes, I got into his crib. Matt was kind enough to remind me that there is a weight limit on those things and that I exceeded it.


After we got him all cleaned up and bandaged we made the mistake of putting him in his regular seat to eat dinner. With all the downward pressure of his dangling feet, the bleeding began again. After that we were more careful to keep it elevated.

Resting on the couch - watching Buzz & Woody!